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The Wayne ([personal profile] thewayne) wrote2025-12-12 10:53 am

Life genuinely sucks, and I have a quandary

I blitzed back to Phoenix Tuesday to get my brother, 66, to the hospital. Turned out I couldn't move him and it required paramedics and an ambulance.

He's now sedated and on a ventilator in intensive care, in critical condition. He has improved a bit since admission, but still critical. At least they haven't called me in the middle of the night for permission to do stuff. He's got like ten different meds being pumped into him. If I'd been delayed a day or two he wouldn't be in the hospital, he probably wouldn't be at all.

Fortunately the library closes from the 24th through the first Monday in January, so I'm not losing much work. But I'm not going to leave town until he's at least out of ICU and breathing on his own. If he lives and gets out of the hospital, he'll have to go into a critical care facility to recover from some wounds (not assault-type wounds), and he'll probably will have to go into assisted living after that.

When I was here in November, he did a holographic will (hand-written) in which he explicitly gave me everything, which isn't much. And after this hospital stay, it may be pretty much nothing. He absolutely hates our sister and the will is phrased to specifically exclude anyone but me, i.e. her and her kids. And the hatred is returned: she hates him, and I know the kids don't like him either.

I'm 95% comfortable with not telling my sister and her kids that he's in such shape. I don't think they'd come to see him. But there's that tiny, niggling bit that if he were to die and I didn't tell them, there'd be problems. At the same time, I never hear from them. And if he does recover and finds out I did tell them, there's also the chance of blowback. Quite the Catch-22.

Thus the quandary.

Anyway, I need to get dressed and off to the hospital.

Pity I couldn't have transported him, he would have been a mile away. Instead, it's half an hour with good traffic.
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sabotabby ([personal profile] sabotabby) wrote2025-12-12 07:03 am
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podcast friday

 Here's a series from a week or two ago that you really should check out: It Could Happen Here's "Darién Gap: One Year Later." It's four parts and I recommend listening to the whole thing, as it's some truly brilliant reporting, but if you are like me, the one that will stand out the most is the second episode, "To Be Called By No Name." It begins with a song written in 1948, Woody Guthrie's "Deportees (Plane Crash At Los Gatos)" that has horrifying resonance now, nearly 80 years later. From that jumping off point, James discusses the media coverage of the manufactured migrant crisis.

The four part series focuses on two migrants in particular, Primrose and her daughter Kim, from Zimbabwe. Primrose's family opposed the regime there and her father was disappeared; she and her daughter fled a deadly situation to try to claim refugee status in the US. The plight of migrants from African countries is even less discussed than those from Latin America or the Middle East; in detailing Primrose's story, James makes her visible, a heroic protagonist facing impossible odds, someone who lodges in your heart and stays there. It's great storytelling as well as great journalism. He refuses the objectivity of the mainstream reporters, who just don't bother to talk to migrants, let alone give voice to their names and stories.

Even posting about this tears me up. I know a lot of you reading this are doing your best to fight ICE but I want to beat every one of those bastards to death with my bare hands and by the end of this series, you will too.
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The Wayne ([personal profile] thewayne) wrote2025-12-10 10:24 am
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Congress strips Miltary's Right to Repair from the Nat'l Defense Authorization Act

Big surprise. After Senator Elizabeth Warren started raising a stink about the military being unable to repair its own equipment, military contractors started "intensely lobbying" for a new system of "data as a service", which would probably have been even worse. Both systems were excluded from the final bill.

https://www.theregister.com/2025/12/09/us_military_right_to_repair_stripped/

https://yro.slashdot.org/story/25/12/09/2123219/congress-quietly-strips-right-to-repair-provisions-from-us-military-spending-bill
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sabotabby ([personal profile] sabotabby) wrote2025-12-10 07:06 am
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Reading Wednesday

 Just finished: You Better Be Lightning by Andrea Gibson. I never had the privilege of seeing Gibson perform, other than on YouTube, so this is as close as I'm ever going to get. They really were a brilliant poet. Some of the poems lose a bit in print—they tend towards the storytelling and autobiographical, and that reads much less powerfully on the page than in speech—but this is a fairly minor critique. Gibson writes powerfully about queerness, gender, disability, and the climate crisis, and their furious energy is made all the more poignant by their premature death earlier this year.

Currently reading: Censorship & Information Control: From Printing Press to Internet by Ada Palmer. This is an exhibit based on a course that Palmer taught and it just makes me wish I could take the course. I'm screenshotting bits to text to people. Her central argument is that the total state censorship we see depicted in 1984 is the exception rather than the norm; more often censorship is incomplete, self-enforced, or carried out by non-state entities like the church or marketplace. This is obviously important when we talk about issues like free speech, which tends to be very narrowly defined when most of the threats to it have traditionally not come directly from the government (I mean, present-day US excepted, but it took a lot of informal censorship to get to that point).

The bit about fig leafs, complete with illustrations, is particularly good, as is the bit on Pierre Bayle, who hid his radical ideas in the footnotes to his Historical and Critical Dictionary in lengthy footnotes that he knew no one would read.

You can get this for free if you want to read it btw.

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archersangel ([personal profile] archersangel) wrote2025-12-09 11:49 pm
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The Shattered Realms by Cinda Williams Chima

this is a 4-book series that is a sequel to her The Seven Realms series (also 4 books)that i read several years ago. both series are YA fantasy.
i was reluctant to start these books because i was afraid i would not like them as much as the other books. i did like them, with some exceptions that i will get into in the spoiler section.

this series is set 25-30 years (there's a time jump) after the first books. there has been another war going on because a prince (now king) of another realm was mad that the woman who became queen in the last series had rejected him for marriage. he's had his brother killed to become king and has subjugated the other realms & he can't conqueror the queendom because it is 90% mountains and his army is really only good on flat land.

in the first series you could possibly handwave their ages and consider the main characters to be 20-22, but you can't do that in this series because they mention ages a lot. and it's Young Adult (which i rarely read), so all of the main, and most of the secondary, characters are teens.

all kinds of spoilers )

there's more LGBT+ representation in these books in the first series (if that's what you're looking for in YA fantasy). in that one 2 very minor female characters are in a relationship. they get a brief mention in one of the these books, but in this series there are two young men that briefly spent time together & spend about 95% of the later books separated and yearning for each other.
there might be a transgender character too. the wizards/mages are referred to with he/him (it was the same in the first series too) but one is she/her. i probably should not speculate, if it's not what the author intended. but they are the only wizard/mage that i can recall being referred to with she/her.
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Darkoshi ([personal profile] darkoshi) wrote2025-12-09 07:32 am

scent memory, Halloween

I just remembered what a bag of Halloween candy obtained by trick-or-treating when I was a kid used to smell like. The candy I've given out as an adult doesn't have those scents. It was probably a combination of scents, but maybe mostly from one kind... chewy and shaped like tootsie rolls with twisted-end wrappers, with several flavors...

I found it, Brach's Royals. The wrappers have changed a lot over time, but this is how I remember them looking:
Brach’s – bulk candy salesman display – 1970’s
The Royals are in the upper left section of the tray, 2nd from the top.
Maybe I'm also thinking of the "Toffee" ones in the lower right, 3rd column from the right.

Ahh, nostalgia. I wouldn't eat those anymore as they are not vegan, and I don't like it anymore when candy sticks to my teeth. But remembering them is nice.

This reddit thread is interesting in regards to children nowadays prefering different candy (not the chocolate ones!) & treats compared to adults/parents:
Are kids these days getting much better Halloween candy than decades ago, or is it just me?
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The Wayne ([personal profile] thewayne) wrote2025-12-09 11:12 am
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25 y/o paper extolling the safety of Monsanto's Roundup retracted from journal

This could have some interesting ramifications.

The paper was published in the journal Regulatory Toxicology and Pharmacology in 2000, and recently revealed emails from within Monsanto show that eight people within that corp wrote the paper and it was proposed that Monsanto people write another paper and have academics edit and apply their names to it.

The paper was cited by the Environmental Protection Agency in approving Roundup for common use, saying it "posed no health risks to humans – no cancer risks, no reproductive risks, no adverse effects on development of endocrine systems in people or animals."

I remember a news program, perhaps British, was interviewing a Monsanto exec who was praising the safety of Roundup, claiming that it was perfectly safe to drink. The interviewer pulled out a transparent glass of clear liquid, and said it was a glass of Roundup, and offered it to the exec to drink as a proof. The exec blanched and blustered and didn't drink it.

An EPA spokesperson said that they did not rely solely on this paper to clear Roundup for use.

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025/dec/05/monsanto-roundup-safety-study-retracted

https://science.slashdot.org/story/25/12/09/053254/science-journal-retracts-study-on-safety-of-monsantos-roundup
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Darkoshi ([personal profile] darkoshi) wrote2025-12-07 02:43 am
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testing DW image problem

This is a test. Images that I post, including ones in my old posts, no longer display right on Dreamwidth...
JPG:


PNG:


I have submitted a support request.
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Darkoshi ([personal profile] darkoshi) wrote2025-12-07 01:16 am

over the air TV: ATSC 3.0 aka NextGen TV

I don't have any ATSC 3.0 television stations in my area and didn't realize it is already fairly widespread in the U.S. (map).

CNET: Free antenna TV is getting an upgrade and it might be in your town already Jan. 20, 2022
4K, HDR, 120Hz refresh rates and better indoor reception are coming to US airwaves for free thanks to ATSC 3.0, aka NextGen TV. ...

I Reviewed an ATSC 3.0 TV - Built-in DVR, More Channels, HDR10+ Video - YouTube video by Antenna Man, 2025/06/13.
Conclusion: Paying extra for ATSC 3.0 is probably not worth it. unless TV reception is bad in your area; the ATSC 3.0 channels may have better reception than the 1.0 channels.

The Downfall of ATSC 3.0 NextGen TV - What Went Wrong? - YouTube video by Antenna Man, 2025/10/24.
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Darkoshi ([personal profile] darkoshi) wrote2025-12-06 05:27 am

cleaning up clutter

It took me all day to clean out one small box out of many that I have around the house. This one had a few items I brought back from Qiao's house after breaking up with him. Deciding what to do with each item. Where to put them, and which things not to keep. It takes me forever.

The dog tags were the hardest. I finally found a small cushioned box to keep them in.

The colorful shiny metallic foil chocolate wrappers compacted into various shapes, I put together with others, in a bigger box with clear lid.

..

I came across the receipt of a 14" flat CRT TV and a Memorex DVD player I bought from Sears in 2006. The TV cost $99. The DVD player cost only $34.99! Both prices were much less than I would have guessed. I still have the TV in a bedroom though I rarely use it. My mom has the DVD player; I have other DVD players now.

I also have a large CRT TV which used to be Qiao's; he didn't want it anymore. As well as an extra LED TV which I was going to replace the CRT with. But the CRT TV turns on instantly while the LED TV (a Toshiba FireTV - avoid them is my advice) sometimes takes several minutes. I suppose I will eventually get rid of the CRT. I don't know if I can find someone local who would want it, considering it still works. I might have to pay someone to take it to the dump. Or take it myself if it's not the horrible smelling landfill place that it would need to go to.

..

On the coffee table is a row of audio cassettes, on which I had copied music for Qiao back when he had a vehicle that played cassettes. I still have the original copies of the music; I don't need the cassettes. So I don't know what to do with them, and they sit there and sit there. I could erase them and take them to Goodwill, I guess? I have occasionally seen home-recorded tapes like that at Goodwill which weren't erased. But I don't think I'd do that.... Hmm, then again what could it hurt. They won't have my name. They won't follow me home to arrest me for having copied copyrighted music to audio cassettes, and then having given the cassettes away.

If someone wants the cassettes for recording their own music to, they can record over them. And if they get a kick out of listening to the music that's already on them, that's great too. But cassettes are old tech; few people would probably want them either way.

Well good, that's one decision made, and an easy solution. Give them to Goodwill in a box along with other stuff I've already put aside to take there.
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sabotabby ([personal profile] sabotabby) wrote2025-12-05 07:25 pm
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Bandcamp Friday

 There are a few hours left in Bandcamp Friday. Instead of using Spotify, why not buy some music there? Coincidentally Grace Petrie has a new EP out.
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sabotabby ([personal profile] sabotabby) wrote2025-12-05 07:12 am
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podcast friday

There has been another round of great podcasts this week, but this is not an unbiased blog, and thus check out The Fiction Lab's "The Intersection Between Activism & Fiction with Rachel A. Rosen" and hear all about how fiction and real life activism inform each other, the challenges of telling political stories, and how to make your political stories (and activism) a little less on-the-nose.
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archersangel ([personal profile] archersangel) wrote2025-12-04 03:08 am
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random Geography poll

i got a 6-month extension my paid account, thanks to that person! (not sure if they want to be named).

so, to celebrate i'm doing a random poll.

i've heard that people in the southern united states think of washington d.c as a northern city, and people in the northern united states see it as a southern city.

what say you?


Poll #33914 is washing d.c. a northern or southern city?
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 5


northern or southern?

View Answers

northern
1 (20.0%)

southern
2 (40.0%)

i never thought about it before
2 (40.0%)

where are you located?

View Answers

in the north
2 (40.0%)

in the south
1 (20.0%)

in the midwest
1 (20.0%)

in the west
1 (20.0%)

outside of the united states
0 (0.0%)

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The Wayne ([personal profile] thewayne) wrote2025-12-03 08:37 pm
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A pair of word puzzle games

Called Pairdown, located at https://pairdown.com/

In the initial level, you click on a letter to remove it, forming a new word. Then the letters that you remove form a word! The second level, you remove two letters of different color, and the first color forms one word, the second another.

Then the harder difficulty blurs a letter in the word!


Another game on the web site is I'm Squeezy at https://imsqueezy.com/. You click on a letter in the column on the left to insert it into the spaces between letters in the words on the right.
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The Wayne ([personal profile] thewayne) wrote2025-12-03 06:43 pm
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RIP: Steve Cropper, a Blues Brother and master session musician

Steve passed at 84, no announced cause. He was a Rock & Roll Hall of Famer who co-wrote Green Onions, In The Midnight Hour, and (Sitting On) The Dock of the Bay! Now THAT is some talent! He appeared in both Blues Brothers movies. Most importantly, he was the founding guitarist of the Stax label house band during their prime, also playing on Sam & Dave's Soul Man, later covered by the Blues Brothers.

Rolling Stone placed him at #45 in the 250 Greatest Guitarists of All Time!

The linked article includes a live studio performance of a shorter version of Booker T and the MG's Green Onions, an absolute classic! It is a little disturbing in that the audience is just sitting there... :-) I'm kind of amazed that Green Onions is just a quartet!

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/steve-cropper-booker-t-mg-stax-records-guitarist-dead-1235477205/

This video is pretty good and very interesting!
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The Wayne ([personal profile] thewayne) wrote2025-12-03 02:55 pm

Computer memory maker Micron/Crucial exits consumer business

to focus entirely on commercial manufacturing, i.e. data centers and AI requirements.

I can't fault them, they're going where the money is, and they are required to pursue maximum shareholder value, as sick as that may be.

To illustrate the state of weirdness going on in the memory market, a "typical 32GB DDR5 RAM kit that cost around $82 in August now sells for about $310, and higher-capacity kits have seen even steeper increases." People are being told that if you need a new computer or upgrade right now, forget it. Wait a year or two. Russet is getting a new MacBook Pro from work, but Apple is a bit insulated from this kerfuffle, plus work is paying for it.

The weird bit is that high-end graphics cards spiked as AI stocks started soaring, and now graphics cards are coming down in price. But memory and solid-state drives are soaring. One thing becomes reasonable, and everything else gets priced out of reach.

Micron will continue shipping Crucial memory through February 2026 and will be honoring consumer warrantees as needed. After that, they will only be selling Micron memory to commercial customers.

https://arstechnica.com/gadgets/2025/12/after-nearly-30-years-crucial-will-stop-selling-ram-to-consumers/
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sabotabby ([personal profile] sabotabby) wrote2025-12-03 07:07 am
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Reading Wednesday

Just finished: The Bewitching by Silvia Moreno-Garcia. Couldn't put this one down, which is why I'm tired this morning. It's dark academia meets gothic with three rather compelling heroines who've been cursed by witches. Like most gothics, it's more about the atmosphere than the mystery, though I did really enjoy spoilers ). And I loved all three characters, which, in true SMG style, are very driven, to the point of alienating most of the people in their lives, and very lifelike.

I am glad I was warned for another spoiler )

Oh it's also super adorable to see the "ancient department heads" at Stoneridge College. This is best not spoiled.

Currently reading: Nothing, but I have a hold that should be coming in soon at the library so it's time to read all my short books.
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Kathryn Rose ([personal profile] enchantedsnowforest) wrote2025-12-01 06:40 pm

1st Mass In Years

 Dear Diary,

          Today I went to Mass. I'm not sure how to feel about it. It was very different, very unique. There were times I cried, times I wasn't sure what was going on but I appreciated the beauty of the Body of Christ and the Blood of Christ.

               Kathryn Rose