Realization

Thanks for all the support so far guys.

Drat! Not been able to sleep much at all.

The fact that i am on my own in this is terrifying but as bro said, "To leave the area where you have lived for so many years would nullify your residential status and negate any chance you have of help from the local Council" and that "They are required to find you EMERGENCY accommodation".

Updates later

I did manage to completely finish watching the fifth ad final season of Haven and the last ep. of The Flash.

Silly Wonderings

Have you ever taken part in an egg and spoon race?

Have you ever walked out from home with clothing back to front and  not realized it?

When was the last time you were clumsy and/or made yourself a fool?

Nada

Well, immediate help will only be available if you are mentally pr physically disabled, a druggie or a lush drunk, then it is nada, a nihilistic nothing and thus a fuck you, unless you go to a hostel whether you are sixty or not. Hey ho!

Post Modern Nihilistic Classical , Rock and Pop, etc

Moments of nihilism and despair -

Kronos Quartet - George Crumb, "Black Angels," Movt. 1, "Departure"

Krzysztof Penderecki - Threnody for the Victims of Hiroshima

National Polish Radio Symphony Orchestra. Antoni Wit, Conductor.

Helmut Lachenmann - Mouvement

Diamanda Galas - Litanies of Satan

Atomic Rooster - Death Walks Behind You

Johnny Mandel - Suicide Is Painless

Birthday Greetings

Happy birthday to kishenehn today. May you have a great day.

Charmed Again

Something to cheer my sorrows, these lovely Charmed ladies.

Friday Musical Selection - Metal

Music for an apocalypse - perhaps - dark moods -

Painkiller - Three Days Grace

( More metal here )