Jan. 13th, 2022
To all my friends
Jan. 13th, 2022 12:01 pmThis will be brief. Ros' CT scan (as we suspected) revealed a mass close to the oesophagus and trachea. The consultant said that he would hold an inter-departmental meeting to decide the next move. A biopsy will almost certainly be required. When we eventually got home Ros hugged me and said: I'm going to die, aren't I. How do you handle that? She looks so frail.
I am in bits.
I am in bits.
I Have This Well Of Deep Sadness
Jan. 13th, 2022 04:20 pmWhilst I had a lovely day in town and on a day that was sunny with blue skies, I have this gnawing tinge of sadness. As you know or may not know, the news from my brother is alarming and devastating, and I can only feel his distress and worry. I hope, I truly hope, that after the biopsy, the diagnosis could be more positive concerning Ros.
We often think we are invincible and can go on forever. Alas, we are not immortal. Then you realize that every day is precious when you reach a certain age.
Whilst I had a good day in the pub my local, with friends and enjoying a curry, but once that is done and over, I come home, read my bro’s blog again and I weep. I weep for a long time till my eyes are dry.
This may not be the first time as time unfolds. I am not a religious person but then I pray to something higher than myself, a universal cosmic presence, that will make everything ok. – hopefully – and for now that is all I can do. Be resilient and brave. For what else can we do?
We often think we are invincible and can go on forever. Alas, we are not immortal. Then you realize that every day is precious when you reach a certain age.
Whilst I had a good day in the pub my local, with friends and enjoying a curry, but once that is done and over, I come home, read my bro’s blog again and I weep. I weep for a long time till my eyes are dry.
This may not be the first time as time unfolds. I am not a religious person but then I pray to something higher than myself, a universal cosmic presence, that will make everything ok. – hopefully – and for now that is all I can do. Be resilient and brave. For what else can we do?