Insomnia

[jazzy_dave]

Stuffy nose is back, Out comes the olbas oil again. Unable to sleep much.  Thinking things too much.   The mind is keeping me in a state of turmoil. Perhaps i should not have ranted. It is so negative.  I feel i want to take every thing back from that post. A guilt trip  I sometimes blurt without thinking of the consequences.  That is one of my failings.

Negativity, like bitterness, is not good for the karma.  It can spread like a cancer. Positivism is difficult to achieve  when what is happening in the world fills you with despair. Then there are the interpersonal entanglements which once affected by negative vibes also  sours life. I am rambling on a bit but i am all over the place emotionally and not feeling in a good place. Like the good Doctor says "Am i a good man?"

In other news, Georgina's mother is dying and of course she is feeling sad about. They believe she might not see the weekend. She is well over ninety. I only heard yesterday when GC phoned me. Tends to put everything else into perspective.

I told her to give me a call if there is any developments and that , although never met her mum,   feel her pain. Oh and talking of pain, that shoulder problem has gone now.  Power to the gel.

Still on this computing course but nearing the end now. Had a week or so of frustration but once something sticks in your mind , after a period of incomprehension, it seems so much easier. Then you laugh and say of course it is obvious, silly me. I should be finishing around mid September.

Perhaps then i can concentrate on trying to write some fan fiction in my spare time. Obvious points of departure would be Who, Star Trek, Firefly (which was so rudely dumped by Fox) and maybe even Farscape.

The nights are drawing in and it is feeling a little bit colder in th evenings.I think i must be more of a summer person than a winter person. On the bus to Ashford the other day i hear a lady talk about her animals and some of her rabbits are already malting. She thinks they are getting ready for their winter coats which suggests, so she says, that we could have a harsh winter, The very thought of it chills me to the bone,


I haven't finished off all these four reports but they will get done later They do not take too long unlike some i had in the past. I have nothing planned now so will do the hoovering tomorrow , including the kuchen, and then the evening .. well perhaps that is another reason for the insomnia. As a Whovian you fellow Who fans know what i mean.

Comments

[swordznsorcery.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're not sleeping well. Maddening when the mind just won't switch off, isn't it! Hopefully you're asleep by now. As to the 'rant' (I didn't really think it was that bad!) - you're right in saying that negativity is a bad thing, obviously, but on the other hand, sometimes it's good just to let it all out, and have a good moan. No sense in bottling things up; and it's not like you do it all the time. Have a good night (what's left of it!) - and happy Who Day tomorrow! :)

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

(Hi-five for the icon!)

[thespian15.livejournal.com]

My nose has been a little stuffy lately. Not sure if I am developing some allergies, or if it's lack of sleep catching up with me. :o

As for the negativity? Some times you have to let some blow off so it doesn't explode inside you. :o
Can I borrow some of that gel? After walking around the State Fair all day today, my heels, hips, and shoulders are killing me. :o
Hugs, Jon

[meri-sielu.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're feeling rough, I hope you start to feel and sleep better soon. x

[kabuldur.livejournal.com]

I thought you might be just having a vent and sometimes it's good to get it out :)

Ugh on the lurgy returning a bit and I hope you kick it soon.

Sorry you're having trouble sleeping. At least you'll have Dr Who to fill some of your night tomorrow night! Maybe when your nose is less stuffy you will be able to sleep better.

I am definitely a summer person and I suspect you may be too, what with your sunbathing and everything!

[davesmusictank.livejournal.com]

Yes i do love the summer and this week we have had a major drop i the temperature, much less so than the average for the time of year, and maybe i have a minor allergy, hence the stuffy nose, sneezing etc. I have taken some anti-histamine which has helped.

[quirkytizzy.livejournal.com]

I think if you've got negative things going on in your life (and you do), it's okay to feel a little negative. Or a lot negative. Whatever you need to feel to get through to feeling a little better. *HUGS*

[davesmusictank.livejournal.com]

It is funny now that i have ranted , despite sounding incoherent at times, i have a much calmer mood today. Oh and did manage to sleep well last night. Perhaps it was the Doctor Who affect.

[siduri1959]

It is probably best to get the rant out rather than keep it suppressed….

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

Think everyone is getting a cold here of late!! Hope you feel better soon!

Sometimes we need to rant though. Just let out the negativity. Between your shoulder, your situation with cousin/roomie, news of a friend's Mum's ailment and horrid weather, it can be hard to be positive. Chalk it up to a bad day and it will even itself out. Karma has cycles and sometimes depression/upset/negativity factor in. It is all in how we handle those things - and you seem to be doing rather awesome at it!

*HUGS*

[davesmusictank.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Today i am feeling alot more positive.

[qatsi.livejournal.com]

I sometimes blurt without thinking of the consequences. That is one of my failings ... Like the good Doctor says "Am i a good man?"

I have some idea what you mean, because I do that too. The way I see it is best summed up by Madame du Pompadour: "The monsters and the Doctor. It seems you cannot have one without the other." We all have our monsters. Hopefully we have something like a Doctor as well.